motivation
I have been going back to the gym and training myself. Why? you ask. Well, here’s the thing… at first I wanted to go to get into shape. But as of recently my motivation lies in my insecurities of what my man thinks of me. I know that he is attracted to me because of his actions. However, when I see the type of the girls that he draws (that come out of his head) I look NOTHING even closely to what he puts on paper. It is an incredible ego DEFLATER! I mean, I know that my body-type is not what most people would say is desirable, but I still think I’m beautiful. I know that other people see me as beautiful as well. It isn’t easy being a “big” girl, and I know that it isn’t healthy. So, yes, I am working on it. BUT I need the proper type of motivation or I’m afraid I’ll give into the temptation do things the unhealthy way. So anyone who sees this, I would LOVE for any type of healthy motivation.
